He told me..

what i say in my blog may be i can't say it in real life .. knowing someone new is always different .. the way he see you and how you see hiim is not always the best one in that special moment.. when the inspiration of writting comes it's liike the time stops,but it's not the case..im thinking in english writting in french, feeling in arabic, i don't know.. may be things are going upside down wiith me these days ..
im i doiing the right choices ?...did i? i definitetly don't know nofiing.. :)
what i knew about liife? that nothing happen for nothing.. i mean, all what happen, what we do ,coincidences, actions,choices,every thing has a sense ,an effect,later.. everything..
you know what he told me ?
to go away from my self , to not think about it until the end of that exam.. my big fear.
he told me that nothing is more important than that since now ..
he told me i have to fight against everything and always stiill stadiing..until ,i get what i want,until i achieve all my goals, always.
He is very impotant for me but is he right ?
He told me no more sarah.. no more daily life subjects.. but only what is" fundamental"(science)
He told me to" forget about your self you have only to work hard".
He said that .. but will i be what he thinks i wiill..?
He is pretediing knowing me better that i know my self..no! it's not true hin?
But..maybe i must acknowledge.. and say yes.
Why doesn't he simply trust in future ?
Why all thiis determination ?from where?
What is it hiding? did he want to do something and it didn't happen??
Or maybe what he's saying is usual and normal, but im not taking things easily ?
Maybe thiis exam is making me thinking like that because im not feeling able to do it ?
Tell me, is it a good thing to destruct the selfconfidence of someone for his own good ??
Maybe i've to be strong,persisting in working,very determinated,regular,always faithful to my envy to succeed,to never forget My principles and do every thing to achive what i want.
He told me that too..
He wants me to be someone special..
Maybe at the end it is more or less possible..
Maybe i have not to write all this.he told me to not do it.. and so ?