Coming back trial

People do things and they think that what they do, it's exclusively concerning themselves and their lives .
Some others don't do things and they think that obviously if they don't pursue what they wanted that's because of someone's influence.

I didn't write on this blog for a pretty long time now .
That's because I saw bloggers, some beloved ones going in way that I didn't wanna go . Ending up sharing my life with strangers ,and then regret it.
Most of them was that one that had her hear broke and stopped blogging because the real amazing love story she was telling tuned up to be a desaster .

I don't know exactly how she felt when discovering that she wasted years just trying to build a fairy tail that wasn't real.

I could defnitely blame some closest people of me , and say that it's maybe because of them that I blocked. but I completely believe that everyone is responsible of what he does. According to that I would be the only one to blame.

I'm a blogger , I will never deny it . I'm that girl who the only way she has to understand what's going on with her , or what's going on with people around her is to run into her laptop and just let the word go out from her. let her mind rambling endlessly.

I want to tell my blog , because I totally consider it as someone important( It happens a lot that I write drafts and supposed that I told it) that I'll be here whatever happens to me.

I'm looking for something.
Something that's going to change my life .
I'm still the same person as few years ago, I just discovered what was real happiness.
Being happy makes you more comfortable with pain . Meanwhile, pain makes you totally less guilty than happiness, can't figure out why ..

Doing something in a regular base hasn't been from my best done .But blogging is about feeling and envy that's the reason I'll be trying to keep on doing it more ofen.
I know it doesn't make sense:)